Dear Finn,
Today is a special day. Today is a day that I have awaited seemingly forever and now has come practically overnight. Today is your first birthday!
You are such a big boy all of a sudden. Still small, still a baby really....but a completely different being than you were one year ago today. One year ago when we woke up early and headed to the hospital, knowing our lives would be changing drastically, but never imagining how blessed and awesome this ride would be. You are the definition of pure joy.
Thinking about you now, sleeping in your crib in the sweet little way you sleep....on your back with your arms and legs sprawled out to the side....totally trusting and open...my heart actually hurts with love for you. Now I understand how the heart of God must feel. When He looks at all of us, into our lives. His children, all of us. And He loves us so much more than we are even capable of loving our own children. Imagine that!
I want so many things for your future Finn. I want you to know God, know yourself, know how to live with kindness towards others. But we have lots of time for those dreams. I just pray that we are capable of being the teachers you deserve.
I want you to grow and stay little all at the same time. I want time to pass but hold still too. I want to give you the very best of everything always and never let your heart get broken. But I know I can't promise you any of this.
I can promise you that life is tough. There will be joys, pains, and lots of in-betweens. Finn, my heart will always hurt loving you. You were worth the wait kiddo. And like it or not, I’m always gonna be right here.
Love, Mom
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